Days like this...

For the most part, being here in Toronto has been quite pleasant. The weather has been quite promising, I've already experienced a thunder storm roll through. That was a highlight of my day. Other days I'm living a very routined life. Things to do here and there, things to get done. But then, there are nights like tonight where I look up at the bright moon shining down on me and reminisce about the days that feel like a distant memory now. My days in LA where I gazed upon this same moon shining down and only dreamed of a day where id be where I am now. Married to a man that I love yet hold the most bitter rage against. The man who holds my heart in his hands yet has the ability to break me down. Being here I've placed full trust into this man as my husband to protect, provide and love me fully as I entrusted my life to be here. But I have to admit, it's not all that I envisioned for myself. I've realized that placing this kind of a trust in any human being is unrealistic. I don't even think it possible to trust your parents with this kind of a trust. It's the kind of trust that I'm realizing is that same trust Jesus placed into the hands of our Father above. The kind of trust that doesn't lack a thing. Wholly, fully, richly. The kind of a trust that I am wholeheartedly seeking to find for my- self, my family and my marriage. Days like today, I'm brought back to my place of being, seeking in a man what can only be found in The One. 

Look above.